Driving Diaries: I Bought A Car!

It's been a while since I updated you on my mission to pass my driving test as an anxious driver, and if you've been following along with my journey then you'll probably wonder where I've been. Truth is, I haven't really had much to update you on. Another two lockdowns saw both lessons AND tests cancelled so in short, I'm still learning and impatiently waiting to take my driving test. 

However it's not all doom and gloom, I'm now the proud owner of the cutest little red Nissan Micra. I've called her Minnie (I had to get Disney in there somewhere) and I absolutely love being able to drive her round and get some practice outside of lesson time. 

How Have Lessons Been Going? 

Okay, I never thought I'd ever say this but I really missed my driving lessons whilst we were in lockdown. They've been going really well and in September I was told that I was ready to book my test! I still get nervous before every lesson but as soon as I set foot in the car, it all comes flooding back to me - learning to drive really is like riding a bike, it's just something that you never forget. 

We've now got to a point where I can drive, I just need Boris to be kind and stop cancelling tests. My lessons have gone down to an hour per week and now consist of me driving round, doing a few parallel parks and having a good ol' chat to my instructor. 

It really is amazing to see my progress over this past year, especially with all the hurdles that 2020 threw at us. As someone who was terrified to even sit in the drivers seat of a car, it amazes me that I'm now driving around and actually feeling confident in my ability to be in control of a moving vehicle. I come back every week, look at my instructors car and think; I've literally drove that thing for an hour and everyone is safe. It baffles me, it really does. 

Conquering My Fear Of Roundabouts

Roundabouts make me nervous. It was the one thing I was dreading about learning to drive; I'd already planned all my routes so that no roundabouts would be encountered. I made my instructor aware of my fear of the circular hell holes and she left them as the very last thing to teach me. If I'm correct, I was about to start on roundabouts when I last updated you! 

I remember my instructor telling me about lane discipline on a roundabout, then she went on to show me the roundabouts I'd be starting off on - she called them the 'easy' ones. Yep, you guessed it, they weren't easy at all! I think the first time I went round them, I held my breath. On my second session, I was driving at rush hour and I became so overwhelmed by the volume of traffic (not to mention my glasses steaming up because of my mask) I literally felt as though I wanted to cry. 

However, I didn't give up as I was determined to conquer my fear. I don't want to be scared of anything to do with driving. Thankfully, my instructor is so patient and I can't tell you how many times we've been round all the different roundabouts, but now I'm finally feeling confident. 

Okay, I still can't really work out when I should go and sometimes I drift into the wrong lane but I'm definitely not as terrified as I used to be - I no longer get worked up on the approach to a roundabout (sweaty palms, guaranteed!). Truth is, no one really loves roundabouts do they? We just have to deal with them. My advice? Don't give up and remember that nobody is perfect! 

Waiting For A Driving Test

As I previously said, in September my instructor told me that I was ready to book my driving test. However when lockdown struck, my first test in November was cancelled and rescheduled to March. This was then cancelled AGAIN due to a third lockdown, so now I'm playing the waiting game and it's incredibly frustrating. 

I'm literally in touching distance of getting my pink license and I can't tell you how disheartening it feels when you get that dreaded email telling you that your test has been 'postponed'. In all honesty, it just makes me want to give up. 

Luckily, I've still got a year left on my theory test certificate, but some unfortunate learners have had to pay to take their theory test again due to it expiring over lockdown. I could sit and rant to you all day about this because frankly, I don't think it's fair. The government should extend theory test certificates for those who have had a driving test cancelled in the past year, or at least pay for them to take a new test. 

Yes, I know what you're thinking; your theory knowledge needs to be up to date for you to take your practical driving test - I fully agree! But please explain to me why, when we've got our license, we never have to go near a theory test ever again? If the rules are changing as frequently as the government say they are then surely it should be mandatory for us all to take a theory test every few years? Or is this just one big money making scam to make learner drivers pay out more? At this moment, I think it is. 

Oh, and let's not get started on the backlog of learners waiting to take a test! 

At this moment the waiting list is currently three months long, and bizarrely those who have never had a test cancelled have been able to book their first test before someone like me has been rescheduled. 

Someone please just make it make sense!? 

Buying My First Car 

I know I touched on this briefly at the start but I just want to say it again; I BOUGHT MY FIRST CAR! 

It's true what they say, it really is one of the best and most rewarding feelings. I've got a little red Nissan Micra and she's wonderful. I don't know the first thing about cars and after looking at a few different models, I realised I'm the fussiest person ever! Either I didn't like the colour, the dashboard was too confusing or the engine was too noisy. 

My Mum told me that when I sat in the car that was meant for me, I'd get this overwhelming buzz of excitement and I'd 'just know'. As always, she was right. The minute I sat in that little Micra, I knew it was the car for me. It was everything I wanted, even the colour (which shocked me because I'd originally been looking for something blue!).

Driving your own car for the first time is such a weird experience because it's a shock to the system. As a learner, you get so used to driving your instructors car and then you get a car of your own and realise that every car is different. It feels as though you're back to square one and it can make you question your driving abilities; that's totally normal. Just keep practicing and you'll soon get the hang of it. Everyone feels weird when they drive a new car for the first time! 

Overall, I love my little Micra and driving her round is such a joy - I'm definitely more confident with her now. I highly recommend a Nissan Micra as a first car - they're so cute! 

So, That's The Update!

Hopefully next time I'm updating you, I'll be holding my blue pass certificate and my pink license will be on the way! 

Lots of Love,

Meg x

Driving Diaries: We're Back!

It's been a while since I spoke about learning to drive hasn't it? 

When I last updated you I was just getting my confidence behind the wheel, I was close to booking my theory test and I was looking at cars. Then corona happened and everything came to a standstill. I didn't sit in the driver seat for four whole months and surprisingly, I missed it.

The information on when driving lessons would resume was basically unknown, one minute I'd be back on the roads in a week, the next in two months. It was a waiting game and I hated it. However, you'll be glad to know that I am now back behind the wheel and I have quite a bit to update you on. 

So, without further ado, here's an update on what it's like learning to drive in a pandemic (that is something I never, ever thought I'd have to write). 

The Theory Test

I thought I'd start with some really good news; I PASSED MY THEORY TEST! 

After two cancelled tests (thanks corona) and a whole lot of waiting, I finally took my theory test on 21st July and I passed first time. It was a weird experience and the extra precautions we had to take made it that little bit more daunting. I was really hoping to pass first time as I'd been prepared to take the test since April so I was over the moon when I got the pass certificate. 

I struggled to revise for my theory test at first but I found that using the Driving Test Theory 4 in 1 app really helped. I'd do a quick mock test or flick through some questions when I had a spare moment and slowly but surely, my scores started getting higher and higher. The app is brilliant because it allows you to flag questions you're struggling with and it also helps that they're basically identical to the questions you get on the actual test. 

It's like with anything in life, if you put in the work then you'll get the rewards. Now I've just got to pass my practical! 

The First Lesson Back 

Here in England, driving lessons resumed on 4th July and I was one of the first to be back on the roads (eager, I know). I was both excited and incredibly nervous. On the one hand I was delighted to be back on track to (hopefully) passing my test by the end of the year but I was also scared that I was going to sit behind the wheel and realise that I'd completely forgotten everything. 

Luckily that didn't happen. We had a little refresher lesson and to both mine and my instructors surprise, I pretty much remembered everything. It was like I'd never been away. 

However, there is one slight change to teaching as it's advised that both you and your instructor wear a mask. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for the current mask situation but trying to learn to drive in a mask whilst your glasses are steaming up is not a fun experience at all.  I'm already a hazard to other drivers, let's not mention me not being able to see!

After a few attempts and trying several different methods, I've finally conquered the whole glasses steaming up fiasco and now wearing a mask to drive doesn't really bother me - I literally forget it's there. 

I should also mention that no personal belongings are allowed in the car, it's thoroughly cleaned before and after the use of every student, gloves can be worn but aren't compulsory, the car windows remain open for ventilation and hand sanitiser is used throughout the lesson. These are just the rules from my driving school, but it gives you a little idea of what you can expect. 

Manoeuvres

Before we went into lockdown, I was about to start on manoeuvres including a bay park and a parallel park. 

So many people told me that it was easier to reverse a car and I can now fully confirm that they were right. I was absolutely terrified to start reversing (if I struggled to drive the thing forwards, I had no chance doing it backwards) but learning to park and reverse has pretty much been plain sailing. 

I started on my forward bay park which I struggled with at first but eventually mastered after a few attempts. Then I moved onto a reverse bay park which I picked up straight away and then onto parallel parking which I'm not fully confident with yet but I'm getting there. I can do it, I'm just not confident which is okay as I know confidence will come with time. 

Just a PSA to other drivers: when you see a learner driver on the empty end of a car park, don't drive up to them, park next to them, stare at them or beep your horn at them. They're on the empty end of the car park for a reason, there's plenty of spaces right in front of the shop so if you could stop being so rude and just leave them alone, that'd be lovely. Rant over! 

You're All Updated

I've been back behind the wheel for four weeks and I've just started on roundabouts which are a complete new ball game and even talking about them gives me anxiety - it was the one thing I really didn't want to do. 

Overall, it's been really nice to be back on the roads and working towards the end goal of passing my test. It's unknown whether I'll be able to take my test this year with the current backlog of cancelled learners on the waiting list but I'm staying optimistic! 

I'll keep you updated on the roundabouts and the car shopping! 

Lots of Love,

Meg x

Driving Diaries: Progress, Car Shopping & Theory Test

Welcome to my Driving Diaries: an anxious girls mission to pass her driving test

Well, I've officially been learning to drive for two whole months. I know, I can't believe it either.

Since we last spoke I've finally mastered junctions, I'm becoming a pro at changing gears and last week I did 60mph down a dual carriageway whilst overtaking a funeral procession (cue that scene from the Inbetweeners). I'm finally starting to feel confident behind the wheel and it's all thanks to my instructor who literally has the patience of a saint.

It's not all been plain sailing though, I've had my fair share of run-ins with idiot drivers (the new bane of my life) and I've been this close to quitting on a few occasions, one being my second lesson when I kept stalling at junctions and couldn't pull the handbrake up far enough. I feel defeated when I can't do something for the first time but I keep reminding myself that I'm learning a new skill and perseverance is key - the worst thing I can do at this stage is give up.

I've had two major driving scares in this first two months; one when a van didn't see us and nearly drove into the side of the car, and the second when a DHL lorry was driving on the wrong side of the road at a ridiculous speed and I panicked. These really knocked my confidence but my instructor takes me back to the places where these incidents happened to make sure I'm not scared driving round those areas.

One thing I used to dread before learning to drive was changing gears. I didn't think I'd be able to change a gear and I struggled at first, but it's a skill that's improving week after week. I also dreaded stalling and the first time I stalled, I nearly cried. Then I realised that even the most professional drivers stall a car and the more I did it, the less it bothered me.

Nevertheless, I still dread every lesson and get so nervous beforehand. I quite literally have to psych myself up to get behind the wheel but once I'm driving I'm absolutely fine. It's mad how the basic skills are just applied in more complex situations.

The Theory Test

The first test I have to pass is my theory test and I already hate the damn thing. It feels like being back at school revising for an exam. It's literally an information overload and the answers are so contradicting. 

I've downloaded the best apps and I read over the highway code when I get a spare minute but I still haven't passed the multiple choice and the hazard perception at the same time on a mock test. I'm hoping to have booked in for my theory test by the end of the month, but somethings telling me that passing could take a little while. I'll keep you updated. 

Car Shopping

Another complicated thing about learning to drive is the weird and wonderful world of car shopping. As a twenty-two year old female who doesn't know the first thing about cars, this has been quite a whirlwind. 

Now, I know what you're thinking - 'Meg, you haven't passed yet. Why are you looking at cars?'

Well, it's always been the idea to buy a car before I pass my test. Firstly because I want to get some extra practice outside of lesson time and secondly because I want to get used to driving a different type of car. The car I'm learning in is a stop/start car but I also want to be comfortable driving (and stalling) a key start car. It's logical when you think about it. 

I've currently got my heart set on either a little Fiat 500 or a Citroen C1, both of which are cars I've wanted since I was 16. Thankfully, I've got my Mum and my friends sharing their knowledge and helping me find the best deal. Who knows, maybe next time I update you I'll have my own little car! 

So, that's the update! 

I'm moving on to manoeuvres next week which I should probably already have been doing, however my instructor wanted to build my confidence on the the actual driving skill first as I was incredibly anxious after the first few lessons, what with stalling and dealing with other idiots on the road. 

I'm already dreading reversing but like I said, I dread every lesson before I'm actually behind the wheel. Then the indicators are on and we're going! 

Lots of Love,

Meg x

Driving Diaries: The First Lesson

A few months ago, I took the plunge and booked my very first driving lesson. At the grand old age of twenty-two I've finally decided that it's about time I get behind the wheel and learn to drive - much to the horror of pretty much everyone I know.

If you're a regular here, you'll know that I've been wanting to learn to drive for quite a few years now but just haven't gotten round to it. Trust me, the intention has been there and I could blame my lack of motivation on my busy schedule or the ever rising cost of driving, but the truth is I've been putting it off. And I've been doing this because I'm absolutely terrified.

The thought of being behind a wheel and in control of a moving vehicle sends my anxiety through the roof because not only am I putting myself in potential danger but other people too. I don't like that kind of responsibility. That being said, relying on public transport and late/cancelled trains has quickly become the bane of my life (Northern Rail, I'm looking at you) and I quite like the idea of having the freedom to go where I want, when I want.

So, now that I've taken the plunge and committed myself to a little blue Renault Clio, whom I'm naming Benny, I thought it'd be fun to document my driving experience on the blog for those of you who are scared/anxious about learning to drive or just curious about it.

Welcome to an anxious, northern girl's mission to pass her driving test.

My First Lesson 

When the text came through to confirm the time and date of my first lesson I was instantly filled with regret- what on earth have you done!? There were so many questions whizzing round in my head; what if I can't do it? What if I hate my instructor? What if my instructor hates me? Will she shout at me? What if I crash? The list was never ending. 

Luckily I had Christmas to take my mind off things and when the day of my first lesson rolled around I was surprisingly calm and a little bit excited. I had my lesson at 9:15 on a Wednesday morning for an hour and a half. 

What Happened?

My driving instructor picked me up outside my house, introduced herself and I made a point to let her know that I was nervous straight away. To my relief, she was lovely about it and drove me to a small, quiet, straight road just five minutes away. We filled in a little bit of paper work and she explained that all we'd be doing is getting to know the car and stopping and starting a few times. Fab, I can do that! 

It was all fun and games until she said, 'so, shall we swap and you can get in the drivers seat?' 

Oh shit, I thought, it's actually happening. 

First I got to grips with the car. I learned how to adjust my seat and my mirrors and then how to start the engine. I'm learning to drive in a keyless car so it's a little different, I'm still getting used to the fact that I only need to press a button and not turn a key. 

Then she pulled out a little pink folder filled with diagrams and explained about how to start a car; pedals, mirror checks, signalling, the lot. It was an overload of information, especially for a novice like me but I nodded along, trying to take in as much as I could. 

'Right, shall we give it a go?' 

I looked at her in disbelief. Oh shit, I've actually got to drive this thing. 

But guess what? I did it and I actually enjoyed it! We stopped and started a few times, each attempt getting better which boosted my confidence a little bit more. Then we somehow went from moving and stopping to changing gears to then doing a three-point-turn in front of a tractor and all without stalling. 

Let me just pause for a moment whilst I give myself a round of applause. Believe me, I'm as shocked as you are right now. 

My Thoughts

The hour and a half flew by and I returned home feeling like I'd actually accomplished something. I was expecting to hate the whole experience and put myself off driving for life but I just couldn't wait to get behind the wheel again! Yep, another shock revelation for you there - I really am full of surprises. 

I know there's a long, challenging driving journey ahead of me but for the first time I'm feeling really happy and excited about this experience. I'm going to keep updating my blog with my progress and my thoughts every few weeks so that you can see both the highs and lows of learning to drive. 

Wish me luck on Junctions next week! 

Lots of Love,

Meg x